Have you ever had that feeling completely dashed, and replaced by cold, hard, heavy disappointment? It feels like cement. All of your shiny hopes and bubble dreams slowly drift into the distance and all you're left with is this sadness that seems to just overwhelm your entire body. It's a horrible feeling.
After surrendering to the fact that nothing is in your control, it seems to be replaced by a manic scramble. How can I make this work? What can I do? Who can help me? The sense of urgency is so overwhelming that you can't think of anything else.
But then all of a sudden, you're presented with an angle that you didn't notice before. And you don't know wether to trust the rising feeling inside that is telling you that everything is going to work out after all. You've been fooled before. Will you allow yourself to be fooled again?
I am going to figure out a way to make it to college in the fall. I am surrounded by people who love me, (and whom I love back!) who want nothing but the what is best for me. And together. We'll figure it out. I have such high hopes for the future. But I also want to keep getting inspired with the present. Spring is here. Changes. Growth. Happiness.